Today was the worst day. I think I have to phase someone out of my life. Without getting into it, it is just really unhealthy for me. I can only be treated like an idiot so many times before you have to face facts and move on... So I am a wreck and it isn't really that I want to eat, but more so that I just sat for an hour and cried my face off and then sat in front of the tv to distract myself and then I realized I was starving. I didn't want to make anything let alone get off the couch. What I really wanted was a Canadian Bacon and Pineapple Stuffed Crust Pizza from Pizza Hut, what I really had was peanut butter on a peasant roll. Yay, me and blah, blah, blah. But I am only seven days into my plan and I really need to stick this out.
What I think is really interesting is the last time I needed to move on from an unhealthy relationship, I did the same thing I am doing now. It is like subconsciously, I know that working out and eating better will give me something to focus on. It drives me to focus on myself and I start feeling better about myself. I'm only seven days in, so I am probably full of crap, but anything right now to distract me from how sad I feel.
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